I didn’t know being in a relationship was like an unpaid babysitter job. :/

Sigh this makes me feel terrible

I don’t even know what I’m feeling right now. A mix of anger and hurt and general sadness I guess. :/

You’re a jealous boy. Fine. I get that. But I feel like it interferes with you and your life and your moods. And even beyond the boys thing. You’re jealous of me. And that makes me feel like such shit Robert. Last night even though you acknowledged that I had worked my ass off, I felt like you were just basically saying wow you’re lucky.

And I didn’t think I was cocky or bragging. I was just telling you and I was sharing it with you because I was happy. I thought you’d want to know….

And you’re holding on to this stuff from the past. Things that I’ve forgotten about and I’m the one it applies to. But you haven’t and it’s almost like it’s being held against me.

:(

I don’t know what to do or what I’m feeling.

I thought things were okay today. I had hoped they would be.

Guess not.

Not really how I wanted to feel two hours before my birthday.

I’m not upset that you didn’t make the Tumblr post because you were scrolling through pictures of boys…. I’m not upset about the post at all.

You really put that much importance on the fucking hormones? Enough that even when you’re talking to me and in a mood, even regardless of the whole birthday thing, you want to look at boys that get your fucking dick hard?….. Really….?

That’s not fair to me. And means I wasted the past thirty minutes we’ve been on the phone.

I feel like my heart has lowered into my stomach and like I’m going to cry. There’s a lump in my throat and just a general feeling of disappointment.

tibblian:

And now I feel like I’ve fucked things up and I don’t even know why or how and I want to cry.

Why can’t everything just be okay for one day. One day without the emotional ups and downs. That’s all I want.

One day to feel like I’m not doing everything wrong.

I’m starting to get motion sickness from all the bumps in the road

tibblian:

I didn’t appreciate the little bitch comment. Neither calling me one in the first place nor adjusting it to say I was _your_ little bitch- that doesn’t make it any better. It’s demeaning and not okay.

Whatever the other comment you made was, I don’t remember what it was (I called you Mr Sassy Pants afterwards, and you asked if I took it seriously. Which I honestly didn’t but it still irked me) but it wasn’t okay either.

If things turn into a rag on Charlie event whether joking or not, that’s not okay. Think about how you’d feel.

I’m not bothered by it but regardless I needed to say this but now is not the time to say it to you directly

sensitive when it comes to you.

insensitive when it comes to others.

:///

Eurgh. I don’t even know anymore. What on earth could be bringing on another cloud Robert…? I genuinely thought everything was okay, and less than 24 hours later it’s not….. I don’t understand.

You say that you’re bombarded by the positivity and that it makes you worried… except if I don’t be positive you’ll just get worse. I don’t know what to do.

i just need to make a post that you won’t see

god i both was and am so irritated.

i can either tell you upfront that i’m annoyed and irritated, and it’ll escalate into this big ordeal that will resolve with me saying i’m wrong it’s fine don’t worry about it

or i can just say that upfront and avoid the mess.

which one sounds more appealing i wonder.

sigh. i just don’t understand what made you think this was a good idea. in the slightest. because obviously you’re still moody and even if it started off better, it’s not any better in the long run.

whatever.